First Baby Dream

I forgot to post about this yesterday... Early Wednesday morning I finally dreamed about Sasha! I've had day dreams of Elmo with Sasha or of holding and nursing Sasha, but I never actually SEE an actual baby. It is more of a feeling than a vision. That is how I tend to dream the most, I think. Well early yesterday morning I DID dream about her! I had a dream of being in L&D and the staff setting her on my upper belly, face down (like they are supposed to). I was rubbing her back to help her stay warm and to rub in any vernix she still had on her. So this was a pretty specific dream. It was good and perhaps set my hopes for the day.

I told Elmo about the dream as soon as I woke up and promptly forgot about it for the rest of the day. It was definitely a good dream and gave me a nice warm feeling.

We took a couple of walks (labor inducer) yesterday and I stood/rocked and walked around the house quite a bit. Mostly I just needed to be off of my butt, but it was a good activity to do. As the sun began to sink in the sky, though, I began to feel a bit down about another day passing without labor. Then Elmo feels helpless to make me feel better. Just being close helps. I really miss being able to cuddle up with him at night. I REALLY REALLY miss it! :'(

Now I've gone and made myself cry. Sigh.